

I am a US citizen but have been living abroad for the last 4.5 years. I can get by with Norwegian language but didn’t really feel hyper compelled to speak it all the time as English is spoken widely and well here. But especially since the inauguration it’s like, I don’t want strangers to realise that not only am I a foreigner, I’m an American. I try to be a good ambassador through my actions and words, but there’s only so much I can do to distance myself from broad brush strokes of “Americans” anymore and honestly is embarrassing. Also I feel deeply sad that I feel like I can never go home. That place just isn’t real anymore.
Eras Tour, Vienna. So about… two years.
So, I’ll never get excited in advance ever again. Call me pathetic but it’s been months and I am still so upset it was just cancelled, erased, and forgotten about. I didn’t want to be greedy so I only planned for that show. I really wish I had been greedy.